February 2010
painting
is what i’m doing with morgan tomorrow. i found 4 canvas’ in my closet, so hey why not. i haven’t tumbled in awhile. i have alot of mixed feelings right now, i just don’t feel like talking about it. now that i think of it, tumblr is just a thing i vent to. good. i feel weird venting to people.
sundays suck. i’m always lonely & get in that dumb depressed mood that...
January 2010
happy 15 denise!
me: tomorrows denises birthday so you have to be there!
elijah: oh sweet how old is she turning?!
me: she'll be 7!
elijah: duude. shes growin up so freakin fast! im so proud of her!
sickday
is what today is. i got up & got completely ready like i normally do, but just as i was about to put on my makeup my stomache like exploded & it hurt soooooo bad. & it was like that for 2 hours. but i feel much better now. i hate missing school. not only do i have to make up 6 periods of work, but i don’t get to see my boyfriend or my friends. that kills me.
it’s weird how...
“if you don’t live for something
you’ll die for nothing.”
“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love...”
– bob marley (via stylemepretty)
“please don’t let me be another mistake.”
girls
are so mean. i can understand if you have a reason to be mean, but most of the population of girls are bitches for no reason. i don’t see it as cool or attractive, at all. in fact, i see it as you’re just insecure. i’m glad i have friends who are like me, & aren’t rude to anybody unless they give you a reason to be. it just brings about drama & things you...
“2 things that will always bring me happiness:
burger king & spongebob”
tonightirealized
how much i dislike my body. it’s digusting, really.
also, i don’t like jersey shore. it’s pathetic that those kind of people have their own show. i hope no one sees them as role models. jussayin’!
“never give up on something you can’t go a day without thinking about”
i’ve always loved this song & the...
auschwitz
today was so random, haha. appearently a tornado was flying around close to our area so we had to stay a hour after school let out. my stupid class had to run through the pooring rain to the cafeteria cause the class is a portable. there was like 5 kazillion people in there like a concentration camp and i was all drenched & i found dylan and dragged him to where kyle & mike were. i found...
“life is short. you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the...”
ramble
i was thinking about how weird it is to think about my future. i’m going to be in college (hopefully), i’ll someday have kids & a husband, a family of my own, i’ll work & clean & i’m going to let go of my selfishness and care for them more then i will myself. then eventually i’ll die. i was thinking that i don’t want to just do that, it’s a...
“i find it hard to believe you don’t know the beauty you are,
but if you...”
– the velvet underground
“real eyes
realize
real lies”
whitechocolate
i can’t stop thinking about it! it’s so good! haha. i wish i had stuff to say but i don’t. i’m perfectly fine today :) besides the fact that i don’t understand algebra AT ALL & i have alot of mythology homework. i’m procrastinating right now, as usual. i wish january would pass a little faster, this isn’t a interesting month (besides denises...
010110
today i got to hangout with my bbyboyfran finally! 2 days is a long time! haha. i’m always so happy when i’m with him, even if we’re doing something dumb. he just makes me happy in general. i’m so lucky to have such a great person in my life. not to mention he’s cute, too! i hope he knows how much i care for him<3
ithink
we should always have mondays off from...
me: stop i'm going to pee my pants
mom: but you're on the toilet!
what a ruiner.
“there’s a difference between ‘i need you because i love you’...”
Walking out the door this morning wondering what it is that’s going on with you on with you. Thinking of a way to say i’m sorry for something that i’m not sure i do
So come on baby let me in and show me what this really is cause Something must have made you say that what did i do to make you say that to me Something must have made you so mad what can i do to make you say come...
idon'tunderstand
people. i’m not angry. it just upsets me when people have so much bottled up inside & it just leads to worse things. what are you scared of? people will eventually find out anyways.
but i can see where this all comes from, some people are so terrible & ruin the word ‘trust’ to others. i’ve noticed alot of people have trust issues. hell, even i do at times. but i...
eggrolls&thenotebook
so, finally today i had morgan to watch the notebook. i’ve seen it before but it’s suuuuch a great movie i never get tired of it. bahaha we ended up balling our eyes out like losers & my mom did too. i looked at morgan and started laughing really hard, but the more i laughed the more tears came out. i don’t understand how such a great movie can exist. it’s adorable<3...
i like to think
i’ll end up happy.
Before I die,
beforeyoudie:
I want to live life. Not just exist.
I want to truly let go of everything in my life.
I want to feel everything.
I want to learn what it’s like to be fully loved.
I want to love without terms or conditions.
I want to find who I am. Not who others want me to be.
amen
yeah
this is my first time actually writing something. i just woke up & the whole time i was sleeping i was like dying to write a blog. haha, weeiirddd. i completely forgot what i was going to say though. but yeah, anyways, me & morgan were supposed to go to downtown jax today & help some thing for haiti, which i was kindof looking forward too, but NO. carl (step-dad) just left haha. so no...